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so its saturday

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 11, 2008, 7:39 PM
I get up. Its raining
Theres a dead bird outside my window. Hoo-ray.
its late morning, I don’t know why but I always like getting up before 10 otherwise I feel as though ive wasted the morning.
Its 11.30.
I go upstairs and find a cookie recipe. I start making them, It gives me time to think as well as just follow a method as apposed to having to create something new.
Once they’re in the oven I start washing the dishes. I ask my sister to help dry them,
Exact conversation
‘ kate could you please dry these dishes?’
‘but I didn’t make the cookies’
‘I know but you’re going to eat them right?’
‘yeah, so?’
So I do the dishes myself, more time to think.
De-bo-rah Mom tells me that she’s put the dead bird in the garden bin.
. I go outside to the bin and look in it to try and get the bird out and put it somewhere nicer. I open the bin and have to peer into the darkness of it as It is practically empty and its quite big. I can’t see a thing. I find it kind of depressing really, a bird that’s used to flying around free, is now enclosed between four artificial walls on a grave of leaves.
Maybe it’s the rain that’s making me feel down. Quite possibly.
The timer on the oven goes off telling me the cookies are done. I take them out and they look good. I feel happy. Once they have cooled slightly, but not completely I eat one and take another two, one for De-bo-rah Mom and one for my sister.
When I offer De-bo-rah Mom a cookie, she looks at me like I’ve just asked her to rip off my hand and eat it, she declines the cookie. My sister does the same. So I take them back and then move the lot onto a cooling rack. De-bo-rah Mom comes into the kitchen and helps herself to some little cookies from a packet in the pantry.
I don’t get it.
There are some really nice warm chocolate chip cookies sitting on the bench but she’d rather eat cold artificial packet cookies.
When I ask her she just goes ‘I know’ and stands there eating them.
My family is confusing.
I think it’s the rain.
So now I’m sitting on my bed, head by the window looking at the rain dripping from the windowsill. I want someone to come and wrap their arms around me and just sit here with me. Just having the comfort of someone here would be nice.
But its just me. I flick through my itunes library till I find The Used and Bert begins to croon his poignant lyrics into my ears. I find their music pretty much the soundtrack to my life.
I hate feeling like this. It’s a mix of hoplessness, sadness, confusion and a whole bunch of other crap. I want to feel better but my mood of the day appears to have already been set.

It’s definitely the rain.

  • Mood: Stumped
  • Listening to: The Used
  • Reading: lyrics
  • Watching: the rain
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: cookies
  • Drinking: -

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`love4art:iconlove4art: 1 day 6 hours ago
Thank you for the favourite. :heart: :blackrose:

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=truemarmalade:icontruemarmalade: 2 days 3 hours ago
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~alice-anesthetic:iconalice-anesthetic: 4 days 12 hours ago
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~alice-anesthetic:iconalice-anesthetic: Jul 6, 2008, 3:52:58 PM
zomg its julia!
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~pinkcoma:iconpinkcoma: Jul 6, 2008, 3:59:52 AM
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~xinterroristxmoox:iconxinterroristxmoox: Jun 18, 2008, 5:19:00 AM
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~bljh:iconbljh: Jun 4, 2008, 5:13:11 AM
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~IzzyLockett:iconIzzyLockett: May 27, 2008, 3:51:14 PM Mood: Adoration
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~simmy549:iconsimmy549: May 17, 2008, 6:46:18 PM
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~raventhegothdoll:iconraventhegothdoll: May 12, 2008, 12:39:49 AM
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~alice-anesthetic:iconalice-anesthetic: May 2, 2008, 9:27:31 PM
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~bljh:iconbljh: May 2, 2008, 9:21:28 PM
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~alice-anesthetic:iconalice-anesthetic: May 2, 2008, 9:17:46 PM
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